The first week

So, in my previous post, I mentioned that I have made some positive changes. Well, the BIGGEST change is... I've joined Weight Watchers. It's been a week, and I've already seen some changes on the scale at home. I go to my second meeting tonight, and I'm rather looking forward to it.

I must admit, however, that this past week has made me nervous. The reason?? Because I have found that the Program (so far) is easier than I expected it to be. I am able to stay within my Points range and eat plenty of things that I enjoy. I'm nervous that I'm in "the honeymoon phase" and that in a week or two, this feeling of ease and joy will wear off and I will turn into a food crazed maniac, binging on junk food and falling asleep in great piles of candy wrappers.

In talking with a friend yesterday (MUCH needed talk, and very therapeutic), I know that the journey to healthy is not easy, and even when you've reached your goal (as my friend has), you still must battle the "fat person" mentality. He is such an inspiration to me, and I tell him as much each time I see him (and his progress is what actually inspired me to join WW). He's (literally) half the person he used to be, yet he still feels like the "fat person" he was in many ways.

So, the fact that my journey thus far (yes, yes... I know it's only been a week... but to someone like me, that's monumental) has been easy, in addition to the fact that I know my friend still struggles with some issues, makes me incredibly nervous. Am I not having a realistic view of this?? I shouldn't feel this positive, right?? Surely, something must be wrong with me....

In any event, here I am, headed for my second WW meeting tonight, and actually feeling optimistic about losing weight for good this time. I pray that my optimism and faith continue to grow.

To Kevin (my friend): Thank you so much for inspiring me. Your journey helps me know that it IS possible.